13 November 2007


January 20 - February 17
You enjoy your freedom, dear Aquarius. You are a very independent person and you hate it when anything gets in your way. That's all right, but you may want to take a look at your financial situation even if that's not really your thing. You tend to resent having to deal with these lowly material questions, but if you don't, you could severely restrict your freedom to live life to its fullest. Be reasonable about things.


oh crap. i just turned single and now im in a financial rutt.

04 November 2007


Good Afternoon Readers,

It's been about 4 months since I've moved down here to San Diego. So many changes have occured between now and then and I'm so eager as to figure out WHY things are the way they are now. I've been focusing so much on adjusting to my new lifestyle that I've realized how ignorant I can be when it comes to focusing on myself. I've never felt so emotional and sensitive to who I am and the choices I've made, especially in these past few weeks. I've learned that you can't deny how you feel, and even if you do, it will show in your behavior and your "everyday" facial expressions.

The Balance of Life and Love.

Life and Love are definitely two different things that have to have an equal balance in order for both to function accordingly. I have failed to hold that balance. As some of you might already know, Jaybe and have departed our ways. We have grown to be so dependent upon each other that we realized how individually different we have become since our beginning days. Basically, Love weighed more than Life. I have invested so much into our relationship that I realized that I lost who I was, the real me. I understand that people change through time, and that other social factors play a great part into shaping a person's traits and characteristics. But our bag grew to the point where we couldn't hold onto it any longer and I had to LET GO. How cliche this may sound, but listening to Britney Spears' unreleased song, LET GO (previously posted on my blog) portrayed a significant message into mine and Jaybe's relationship:

When you let go
Of all you've known
The butterflies fly
And you will see the way it goes
And all the love
Everything will be shown
So let go
Let go

- Britney Spears

I love him. He Loves Me.

We both initiated that our LOVE for eachother is still there. As a matter of fact, I believe it will ALWAYS be there. But for now, letting go is the best way to contain this love. We have an entire life to experience and if we held on any longer, the imbalance of love and life would lose signicance in each and every one of these life events. For example, Jaybe has never experienced the art of dating. Ever since he was younger, he was always involved in a committing relationship. He lost his innocence so fast that he realized how much he has lost as a person. I, too, have a lot to experience and lost ever since I have become more dependednt on Jaybe. I went through a downward cycle from giving everything to a minimum in a matter of years. Time can only tell where our relationship was heading.

We both wanted freedom.

Thinking that moving down to San Diego would enlighten our thoughts and indivuality, only led us into realizing that there is more to Life then just each other. A higher priority for the both of us is to complete our education; for Jaybe to complete his nursing program and for me to obtain a Master's Degree in Psychology. Through this, all the in-betweens from Now and Tomorrow are just as factors that will help us grow as indivuals. Who knows. We both have an equal chance on meeting new people, but that's exactly what we want. Getting to know others around us will play an important part into helping define who we are outside of our relationship. I can reconnect with my friends that I lost along the way, and Jaybe can develop new friendships with his fellow colleagues. Time will be invested more on getting-to-knows instead of having-to-go. Life will be more generated into a whole instead of a part, our relationship.

So Far, So Good.

Since our love for each other has applied into a stronger friendship, Jaybe and I have are still adjusted to living together. We both know that we can't sacrifice moving away or even move back home to LA since we have a life in San Diego to fulfill. We still have each other's support towards completing and reaching for our hopes and dreams. And until the day we will get there, JBX will only grow stronger.

JBX: Livin' It. Lovin' It. Rockin' It!

19 October 2007


If my life were on THE HILLS than this is what it would look like:

Britney Spears - Let Go

This is one of Britney's new songs. Although it can be very rare hearing her actually singing,and in this song she actually attempts, the lyrics yet so are beautiful. Hope you enjoy it as much as I am.


It's written everywhere
I've even read it in my script
But when I thought it wasn't fair
I felt it on my lips, let go
I don't wanna be the one
I think you already know, oh

The feeling of going down way too deep
Holding on
So you won't lose your feet
Sometimes you just gotta trust
You gotta take that leap
And let go
Gotta let go

I've got a feeling
By a look you're through
Oh no
What you're revealing
I sit and pray
And I will pull through, oh yeah

When you let go
Of all you've known
The butterflies fly
And you will see the way it goes
And all the love
Everything will be shown
So let go
Let go

The touch of grass
The air
The sun it will rise
You will see so clearly
It will bring tears to your eyes
Maybe everything will be alright
So let go
You gotta let go

I've got a feeling
Right now
You feel it too
Oh, oh
This little song
Might be the one
That will tell us what to do
Oh, oh, ooh, ooh

These tears are overflowing
And never knowing why
All these years we've been
We've been hurting
We have to look inside
And try
To let go

You gotta let go
To love, you gotta let go
If you really wanna love
You gotta let go

11 October 2007

Official 'BlackOut' Cover and Tracks

Let's all just hope this isn't the REAL thing.

Oh and by the way, Album release date has been booted up from mid-November to October 30th!!! Just in time for some Halloween treats!

01 Britney Spears - Gimme More 04:11
02 Britney Spears - Piece Of Me 03:32
03 Britney Spears - Radar 03:49
04 Britney Spears - Break The Ice 03:16
05 Britney Spears - Heaven On Earth 04:52
06 Britney Spears - Get Naked (I Got A Plan) 04:52
07 Britney Spears - Freakshow 02:55
08 Britney Spears - Toy Soldier 03:21
09 Britney Spears - Hot As Ice 03:16
10 Britney Spears - Ooh Ooh Baby 03:28
11 Britney Spears - Perfect Lover 03:02
12 Britney Spears - Why Should I Be Sad 03:10

Britney Spears' BLACKOUT Album Leaked!

Apparently, we just can't wait until her album comes out. All the tracks from "Blackout" have been leaked all over the internet. I just finished listening to all the songs and I just have to give that applaud that Britney does deserve.

The entire album is a mix of Euro-Pop meets City meets Dance/Clubs. I'm personally digging "Love is a State of Grace" as her ballad and "Break the Ice" as her second hit! LOVE IT!

If you haven't already, start the illegal downloading and dance with me!

TEASERS: Images of Britney Spear's GIMME MORE single.

YIKES! I'm late to class!

10 October 2007

John Mayer - Gravity

Adding a new label: Lyrics of the Moment. Trying to use songs to express my current state of mind, body, or soul.

John Mayer

Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh I'll never know
What makes this man
With all the love
That his heart can stand
Dream of ways
To throw it all away

Oh Gravity
Is working against me
And gravity
Wants to bring me down

Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
It's gonna send me to my knees


Oh twice as much
Ain’t twice as good
And can't sustain
Like one half could
It's wanting more
It's gonna send me to my knees

Oh gravity
Stay the hell away from me
Oh gravity
Has taken better men than me
Now how can that be?

Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where keep me where the light is

09 October 2007

Heroes: Milo Ventimiglia

I finally saw my first episode of Season 2 lastnight! I admit, the show was a tid bit confusing, since it's been a couple of months since it's been a while since the Season Finale of Season 1 came out. But what I do want to point out is the improvement Milo Ventimiglia's character has made upon himself! Last season, they barely showed his chest. This season, whoa, shirtless and busting out his muscules in one episode! Love it! I can't find any online pictures of him being shirtless from lastnight's episode, but I will include him with some skin! Ohh! and the haircut! Fuckin sexy!

He makes me wanna La La!



06 October 2007

JBX: Pizza, Pictures, and Poop!

Wow! We just got back from our dinner experience, celebrating our 2nd Year and 7 months of love. I'm actually going to leave it to Jaybe to share the moment with you from his blog.

As for me, I'm going to finish off how are day was spent, just like I promised.

We woke up around 10 in the morning. Changed into beach mode and packed our stuff and by 11, we were set to go. We had to drop by the mall first because the shoes I got for Jaybe included both the left pairs. So we headed to the North County mall and made that adjustment. Afterwards....MISSION BEACH!

The weather was beautiful. It was slightly warm with a light breeze. At this point, we were hungry. We wanted to try Fat Boy'z Pizza because we never really got the chance to try those giant pizza slices that everyone talked about. The environment was so festive, even after the fact that it wasn't Summer season anymore. There were a good amount of people and the rides added more to the festivities. I ordered a giant slice of the mushroom and sausage pizza while Jaybe ordered a Fat Boy'z Cheeseburger Special. We originally wanted to eat on the beach, but once we walked there, Jaybe changed his mind because of all the seagulls following us and the possibility that the sand could get into our food. So we walked back to the tables.

My pizza was yummie and huge!

Jaybe's burger was just as good!

After lunch, we headed back to the beach to sun bathe. We both weren't in that mood to actually get into the water. Instead we were laying in the sun for about 30-45 minutes. It felt so good finding that time to fianlly relax and closing out everything around me that required thought. Me and Jaybe even talked about so many things and of course, checking out some of the guys around us. We even took some silly pictures...

While we were doing just that, Jaybe got a little surprise on his hat...

...And a little surprise it was! Bird Poop!

After the beach, we headed back to the parking lot where we finished our day at Mission. We took more pictures next to our car and I admit, they came out pretty darn good...

After the beach, and driving shirtless down the 8 fwy, we headed to the Fashion Valley mall to walk around. We even had a little fun doing a small photoshoot in the Nordstrom's restroom. We were digging some of the stuff from Nordy's but seriously, we still can't seem to adjust to the malls here. It's so difficult for Jaybe and I to shop at places where we can't seem to find anything we like, like we normally are used to back in LA! I know that when H&M gets down here, that would be a fresh start! But yeah..we basically window shopped, and ended up with nada!

We headed back to Rancho Bernardo afterwards and wanted to go to Target and look at some digital camaras. Were planning on getting a new digital camara, but we're still researching on what's new and good. Any ideas? But yeah instead of Target, we just headed back home to chill until dinner. My maintanence light turned on for the first time with my new car, so I'm excited to get that done! Soon I hope.

Other than that, that conludes the first half of our day. To continue to how our dinner was, check it out at Jaybe's Blog>>>JAYBIO

2.7 First Half: Mission Beach

Just got back from our first half of the day. Mission Beach was very relaxing as we enjoyed ourselves lying down under the sun. So now were just chilling at our apartment and killing time before our dinner reservations. I hope he likes the place I chose...

To Be Continued & To Be Described...

05 October 2007

JBX 2.7 Anniversary

Hip Hip! HOORAY! Today is mine and Jb's 2 year and 7 month Anniversary! Unfortunately, I had to work today, but we still made the best of our day. Since today is Friday, I didn't have to wake up all early for school. I basically slept in while JB still had his classes. I woke up to his text saying, "I miss you baby. I can't wait to see you..even if it's just for half an hour." That already brought a huge smile to my face! I knew today was going to be extra special.

I woke up and started to do some of my research for my Theories of Human Development course. I was stressing out because until today, I still haven't purchased my textbook and my assignment involved reading chapter 2. Other than that, I showered and got ready for work and once I got out, there JB was...with chinese food! Super suprising, and super delicious!

Work wasn't that bad today, actually it was quite slow for being a friday. I'm starting to get along more personally with my co-workers. Although most of them are women, I can't really complain. Towards the end of the day, I went shopping for JB! I'll show you what I got him towards the end of this post...

When JB picked me up at work, the first thing he told me was how much he loves me. At the same time, he busted out this sunflower! (Sunflowers are my most favorite flowers) and it was all wrapped in a purple ribbon.

After depositing my paycheck, I was so anxious to get home. It was so cute because when we pulled up to our parking lot, we noticed that the sprinklers were on and how impossible it would be to not getting wet. It was like those moments in the movies where we both try so hard, and ending up making it a fun game. Anyway, once I opened our door, everything looked so calm and romantic. JB set the table with a vase full of sunflowers, pebbles surrounding it, and candles that added soft sparkles. It was beautiful...

He told me that dinner would be ready in a few minutes and that I should go change clothes and check out the new Britney Spears "Gimme Gimme More" music video that he got from iTunes. I thought that the video was a little flat regarding how 95% of it was focusing black-haired Britney on a pole. But I do admit, it was vibrant and colorful!

I also got the chance to do some research on where I'm going to take him to dinner for our anniversary dinner tomorrow. Since it's still considered a surprise, I'll post more info on that after tomorrow.


I walk out of our bedroom and into the living room. The lights were dimmed and there he was in the kitchen being all cute. "Welcome to JB's Kitchen. A 3-course meal is my special treat, just for you.." He cooked a whole meal! He even had a cute name for each entree.

First Course: "Pizza de la Hammie"

Second Course: "Pork Chop a la 2.7"

Third Course: "Peaches, Cream, and Crumbs"

Dinner was so special! This is our second anniversary spent here at our new home in San Diego! Last month, I forgot to mention that me and him just took a driving tour of what San Diego can offer us. From the Pacific Coast Highway Beaches, to the malls, to the Downtown Gas Lamp District, we loved learning more about what's around us. But today, was just as memorable!

After dinner I gave him my gift. Although I'm a little more on the less romantic side, I knew he would love these...


He super loved them! But stupid me...they were both the left pairs! So tomorrow were going to head back to the mall to fix that. Then we are going to start off our anniversary weekend! Its only a monthly anniversary and we have a whole day planned for tomorrow including heading to the beach! Love it.

As for now, I have my appointment with him in the shower..I think you know where this is heading for the remainder of the evening.

I love him. He loves me.

22 September 2007

Britney Spears 2007 VMA Performance: My Critique

Britney, Britney, Britney...

After a resilient moment of not publishing any thoughts about the actions of my very own, Miss Britney Spears, I owe it to you on my inner-most feelings about this "pop princess."

I devoted a lot of time into learning more about Britney; what she wears, why she wears it, who she's with, why she's with them, where she is, why she is there, and WHAT THE HECK WAS SHE THINKING COMING BACK TO THE VMAS LIKE THAT!! I remember the night of the VMAS like it was the morning of 9/11. It was a school night, and instead of reading my second chapter of my Clinical Psychology textbook, I turned into MTV, only excited to see my celeb come back with a bang! Me and Jaybe even invited our friend to come over our apartment to celebrate this occassion! Around about an hour before the show, I already receieved a text message from an old friend of mine who always teased me about my not-so-obsession-anymore with Britney by saying, "WHAT DID BRITNEY JUST DO. ITS OVER FOR HER, MAN." I had no idea what he was justifying, but I had this overshadowing pause into thinking, "Oh shit! This is no IM A SLAVE FOR YOU performance!"

The 2007 MTV Video Music Awards starts now...Just pondering about this and waiting years for this moment brought my excitement and full attention to the flat screened tv. My first thought, "WHAT THE HECK IS SHE WEARING!?" I mean yea, it was fine...if the year was 1999! Britney came out wearing the most skankiest outfit for the sake of this occasion. (I LOVE YOU BRIT, I REALLY DO!) Then the performance. The image that keeps replaying in my mind was when she had that little laugh in the intro of her "Gimme Gimme More" song. She did it alright, giggled then used her finger to slick her hair behind her ear. Already a disappointing nod. Then there were the jiggles. BRITNEY IS NOT FAT. She's just got a little chub here and there. Adding all those sexual choreographic incidences just made this performance a little more tacky then what it turned out to be. I hated when the camaras turned to the other celebs when all they offered was pure shame. It seriously made me feel like I lost a game. BRITNEY HAS DONE SOMETHING SO UNIVERSAL.

Anyway, seconds after the performance, my cell phone was ringing up the butt. Friends and family who knew about my hardcore fascination for Britney texted me how shes over, career suicide, blah blah blah. I coudn't NOT agree.

Then there was beat. FUCKIN SARAH SILVERMAN had to make things worse then what it already was to comment on her babies and how they were a mistake. DUDE! CHOOSING HER TO HOST THE SHOW WAS THE MISTAKE! (eew! I sound so violent).

The next few days was a rampage, not only on Britney's "comeback performance" but on the VMAS itself. Critics and reviews were grinding every bit of detail from that night. I agree about how this year's VMAS sucked ass! I still look back and remember the BRITNEY, CHRISTINA, MADONNA moment in time! THE BEST VMA OPENING PERFORMANCE EVER!

Whatver fate has to offer, I just hope I remember to have my cell phone away from me hours before and after the next Britney Spears Performance.

Anyway, for the sake of your viewing pleasure, and for those of you who dares to go back into a time of shame, here's the not-so-comeback-performance:

20 September 2007


Well here it is.

I'm back! It's been a long time since I last posted something worth reading. But then again, it was my vacation. Its been about 2 months since I last posted something about my life. I ended my first season with this blog during my vacation at the Philippines. I apologize for that delay. But since then, there has been an array of changes that has undergone throughout my life, declaring that a new season has yet to begin. Season 2. Where on Earth was I thinking that I should break this blog into seasons? It's not exactly a show on tv, yet I believe that this is the start of something new.

First off, let me throw you a little pitch of what my life is about.

I'm a 22 year old college student who recently moved to San Diego, CA with my boyfriend JAYBIO. I premiered this blog around April of this year and since then, my life has been more of a reality-show website. I enjoy many cultures of life, especially celebrity news and gossip. I enjoy posting random and sometimes explicit pictures of many popular celebrities who I admire for beauty, fashion, sex appeal, or even just a dramatic shot. I am a dedicated Britney Spears fan, yet I'm still trying to figure out about her true self as, I'm sure, we're all trying to do. I also like to travel and experience as many restauants and eateries as much as possible, especially with Jaybe. Since our recent move to San Diego is still undergoing observation, expect many surprises. This is going to be an interesting transition since I will have to adjust from our normal "Hollywood Lifestyle" to the "Sunny Dee of SD"

03 September 2007


A preview for you is a pleasure from me.
3 Tracks from Britney. Enjoy.





01 September 2007

TACTOLOGY - Season 2

Be prepared for a new and rediscovered season. Summer has dried out and now it's time to recreate and vamp his memory and life into literature. To all of you who have been patient for the new arrival, be cautious and ready for a new trial. In response towards the newly seekers, this is only the beginning into the life and words of TACTOLOGY.

08 July 2007


Yesterday has been one of the more exciting days of this Philippine Tour Adventure! (I always tend to keep having new names for this trip!) But anyway, today we headed to the city of Baguio! The drive there wasn't bad at all! In fact, it was just about 45 minutes up and up and up the mountain! The first thing I noticed was how beatiful nature can be in this country. The mountains were high with so many green! I felt as if the ride could have been a tad dangerous since the roads were wet. It also didn't help when other drivers tried to OVERTAKE you or when my dad tried to OVERTAKE them.

On the way there, I saw this big JOLLIBEE sign. It was no HOLLYWOOD sign, but it was the closest thing to it. I asked my dad to stop the car so I could take a quick picture of it only because it was so random with no Jolibee in sight! Then a couple of minutes later we saw it...our "WELCOME TO BAGUIO CITY."

We finally got to the top, and there it was..BAGUIO CITY. The first thing that we did visit the PHILIPPINE MILITARY ACADEMY (PMA). The first thing that we noticed were the cadets, with thier uniforms so fit and stiff. We took a lot of pictures in that academy, including one with a cadet who was having a lunch visit from his family. Lolz the first thing I noticed what they were eating was white puto, which all of a sudden gave me a craving. Me and the bro also took pictures in the tree house tower and a statue of one of their weapons. We ended up in the visitors center and bought some PMA shirts and I even got myself a blue PMA hoody! I can't wait to rock them in the States! On the way to the exiting gates, we saw this one statue of those Plume top hats. It was so random that we took a picture right in front of it. Here's saluting the Philippines Military!

After leaving PMA, we headed to Camp John Hay. It was pretty scenic regarding the golf course that they had. It sort of reminding me of where I live back in the states since I live on the hills of a world-known golf course. I basically breezed by and took random photos of thier clubhouse and local buildings and shops.

We continued the Baguio City tour by driving to THE MANSION. We just took some picture from the gate which wasn't much fun, but we knew it was a landmark somehow. Then we drove through WRIGHT PARK which was so beautiful. The long pond and trail made it seem like this place came out straight from a romantic movie. I had lovey dovey feeling for Jaybe all of a sudden. Down the hill from Wright Park was a little place where you could ride horses. We didn't stop by for that but I did take a picture of this random pink horse! It totally amazed me. Reminded me of Circus Circus in Las Vegas, NV! When we came to the busy part of the city, the first thing I noticed was this man doing something that you'd rarely se in LA. He totally defined the word labor. This is why filipinos are naturally studs.

So finally after a few twists and turns I saw it..THE SM at BAGUIO CITY. The mall looked so majestic since it was sitting ontop of the hill. The mall was very grand with 4 levels. The top level was the most beautiful since it had the view of what Baguio City had to offer. We ate lunch at GERRY'S GRILL which was more or less one of the best restaurants that was in the SM.

This was also where I had my first experience eating some kuhol (aka SNAILS).

First I had to sip up the snail juice.

But totally hesitant when it came to actually eating the real thing.

It was actually tasty! I ended up eating 5. Yum! Squish Squish!

After lunch, me and the bro were on our own. We went through each floor going through the shops that we thought were worth it. We even took a picture from the highest floor to get the best view of Baguio. It was a picturesque view, so beautiful in culture!! First we headed to HUMAN where I was debating whether I should by a shirt or jeans. I ended up leaving the store empty-handed since I kept telling myself that I'd find something more worthwhile. My first purchase of the day was at BENCH. The undies had blue crown prints and it totally made me feel royalty! Jk! But yeah..then we continued to OXYGEN where I was going to jeans (again). But I just kept telling myself.."You'll find something more worth it at Hong Kong."

After the whole mall experience, we headed to the streets of Baguio. It was seriously hard for me to keep up with my bro. Everyone walked as if they were driving. I had to literally takeover everyone just to get ahead.

Then we ended up at the CATHOLIC CATHEDRAL. It was nice. We took some pictures in front of it. Afterwards, we headed inside to pray. I haven't attended mass in 2 weeks. So I had a lot to pray about. lolz.

The end of our Baguio trip concluded at BURNHAM PARK. I kept thinking to myself how it would be romantic if I could stroll down this park with Jaybe. We just walked a lap around the park while my parents sat down enjoying the boat riders. It was sort of wierd, because we caught these two girls trying to take a picture of us. I have no idea why, but I hope it goes into a positive use. I also saw a dude walking with a purse on his shoulder. I have a bag of my own and it was rare to see men with man bags. But since this was a knock off of DOONEY, might as well enjoy this for my entertainment, but then again, I'm glad he ROCKED IT! (Apologies to the dude with the purse)

The ride back home was just as beautiful as going up the mountain. We stopped by to take a view from the high heights. On the way, we even took a snap of the LIONS HEAD from the car. I have no idea of the signficance of this monument, but it was uplifting. There was even a little girl who pulled up to our window offering us some gold for purchase. I just told her that I have some gold at home. Sad, but true! As predicted, it started to rain and chances of getting in an accident continued.

The remainder of the evening was spent with so many visitors coming over for dinner. My dad has been living here for almost over a year and has met so many people along the way. Some of the visitors were my dads neighbors. One of them was a girl named, Joy, and we ended the night singing karaoke together. She was such a great singer. When we sang The Gift as a duet, we so rocked the house! I don't know if I'm going to see her again, but I so regret the chance of taking a picture with her because she was the prettiest person I saw so far in this trip.

The night ended with me killing a lizard. I just closed the window before i went to bed and then I saw the body of a lizard with the head stuck in between. I felt so bad. Even though I tripped out everytime I saw the lizards on the wall, I stil felt like an animal murderer!!


Today was more of a chill day. I woke up not knowing what we'd be doing today. I finally got a chance to call Jaybe today and we talked for more than 2 minutes!! I feel so happy everytime I hear his voice because I know that he's doing good. We ended up having lunch with more visitors. It was more unique though, because these 8 visitors were 17-20 year old nursing students. One of them is more related to us because shes my uncle's grandaughter. We all ended up singing karaoke and it was fun because they were all shy. I really doin't know why everytime we meet new people our age or younger, why they have to be so shy. I mean, I'm one of the most harmless persons you can ever meet in the world! I keep asking my mom why that is and she tells me that here in the Philippines, girls are raised to be shy. It just gets to me that most of these people don't get the chance to socialize with others besides who they're already familiar with. If I were to do something about it, I would try to talk to as many locals as possible. But until then..I'm just living the LA life in the Philippines!