31 May 2007

First Day on the Job

Boy what a day. My day started off earlier than normal considering the fact that I had to wake up early for my first day of my new job. I know I may be complaining about the earliness, but I know when I look back at this blog a year from now, this would all be baby steps.

So my work environment. I'm basically working in a cubical, the standard working place in a business setting. Although I was getting a little ZzZz on the job, my motivation this time was honestly the money. I have not had a job in a little over 2 months and I've been feeling degraded for missing out on most of life's opportunities, especially with the friends.

The people were nice. I sat next to this older filipino lady who helped me out with a lot of my work. Which leads me to a subtopic. Why is it that everytime I meet a new filipino person, the first thing the ask me is DO YOU SPEAK TAGALOG? When I say no, but explain that I understand a few phrases, they go all ballistic on me, LIKE ITS A CRIME THAT I DON'T FLUENTLY SPEAK TAGALOG. Anyway, then she asked if I've ever been to the Philippines. When I told her that I NEVER BEEN TO THE PHILIPPINES, she tripped up twice as much. It's not that I never had the opportunity to go, because my parents go every year, it's just that I've been so focused with school where it would conflict if I did decide to go. And plus, I WILL BE GOING TO THE PHILIPPINES FOR THE FIRST TIME in the end of June. Kapish?

I also met this other fella, a cool guy named Chris. He helped me out with the third thing I had to do today. It was really interesting talking to him because he is invovled in dancing and even knows some people that I knew as well. Since Jaybe is into dancing, we had a dancing conversation and he told me that he danced for Cal State Fullerton's TEAM MILLENIA for a couple of years and still supports FUNKANOMETRY, a dance team in San Diego. And then, when I told Lerissa, who coaches my high school alumni dance team, she knew him too! Turns out that he's a well-known choreographer in our area, and is respected in the hip hop dance community. So yeah, that was cool.

Anyway, I'm pretty tired. I should be going to sleep soon. Oh and my boyfriend Jaybe has been updating his blog like no other and even joined the PLUBLOGS community. Check him and his hot pictures out at JAYBIO.

As for now..goodnighters!

Oh. and Happy Birthday Dad. Wish you were here. I Love You.



JAYBE AND ME in Glendale, Ca



A woman who can make fashion an endless journey.


HUSH AND LISTEN is a very unique blog I've came across ever since I started TACTOLOGY in April. The creator and author uses his creative mind and imaginative skills to write some very deep essays, poems, and words to read. His talented imagery and photos that he uses not only excite my imagination, but takes it to a whole new level when I add his words into the picture. If you haven't already, check it out, you'll be amazed!

I've noticed that there was a G* SPOT WEBLOG AWARD that is awarded every month and noticed the different blogs in which were nominated. Surprisingly, TACTOLOGY has been nominated for the month of JUNE 2007 which, according to khalelian, is PRIDE MONTH. As much as I'm flattered, I'm actually excited to be nominated. I would have never thought that 2 months into creating this blog would it be nominated for such an award. So, for those who've been constant readers or newcome readers, VOTE FOR TACTOLOGY! Sounded nice? lolz no seriously, if you're interested go to HUSH AND LISTEN and vote for me on the right hand side of his page. If I don't win, it's cool. If I do...I'll give all of ya a cupcake!


30 May 2007

New News is Good News

Today was an adventure. Me, Jaybe, and The Deuce headed down to San Diego again to take care of some business. Jaybe had to take an entrance exam for his school that he's planning on attending in the Fall. Since the test was two hours long, me and my bro ended up driving around the area. We routed ourselves to the Mission Valley Mall. The mall wasn't really that great. I mean, I remember going there like a year ago and all we bought were pretzels. But yeah, we ended up in the SUNGLASS HUT and we both tried on sunglasses. I loved these two PRADA SUNGLASSES! They fit me beautifully for once! lolz. Here's what they look like:

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I was heading more towards the first one, what ya think?

Afterwards, we headed to the NORDSTROM RACK where I found these two contemporary/modern black wooden chairs that would go perfect for mine and Jaybe's apartment were planning on moving into this Fall.

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Anyway, we headed back to Jaybe's school and heard some good news. Turns out, Jaybe placed really high in his scores. He placed at the 93rd percentile overall, having 100% score on math. He's always been a math boy and I'm so proud to be with someone so smart on that subject. He's a big helper when it comes to our bill in high-end restaurants since he knows whats a good amount to put in. But yeah, Good Job Boo!!

We ended up having a good lunch with our close friend Nadine and her boyfriend Ian at the FASHION VALLEY MALL. Now that mall was more of our familiarity since it had high end stores. Loved it! We ended up eating at CALIFORNIA PIZZA KITCHEN which is a great place for a lunch! We got to know more about Ian since this was like the actual first time getting to know more about him at a personal level. Since he's from Chicago, our conversations were interesting ranging from difference in accents between LA and Chicago, to weather, to schools, etc. After lunch, we departed our ways and me and the boys headed to more apartment viewing.

I never realized how traffic the 15 HWY could be. I even missed an exit and got ourselves lost. San Diego could be a real complicated city to drive in, which is totally ironic coming from an LA boy. Anyway, the drive back home was tiring, only because I was exhausted from going to point A to point B to C D E F! lolz I swear, we drove a circle throughout San Diego today! But it was good because we got more familiar with more areas that we never knew existed!


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Other news, is good news. I got a new job today! Well, its actually a temp job since I'll be heading to the Philippines in a month. The pay is great and it is full time. So we'll see how this goes. I actually start tomorrow from 8 to 4:30 in the early evening. This could be good because I'm planning on using this money to pay off more of my credit card bills and save for more apartment "stuff." Perfect timing, I guess. But for sure, I'll be posting more about this job in the next few days. Yikes!



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Showing some from the TREO.

29 May 2007

Britney and The Truth

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Dear Fans,
I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.

It's so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It's like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don't know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn't be here.

Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don't think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn't know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.

This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person...it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.

I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter...to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a "bitch."

I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.

I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.

I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want...and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That's God's job. I can't wait to meet him...or her.

Love, Britney

Quote of the month...
It is ok to disagree with people regarding certain issues. You’re not being true to yourself if you succumb to others opinions because you feel guilty.


I <3 You Britney,

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So I came across a FASTWEB Scholarship online today. It's actually a fascinating scholarship because it doesn't follow the "I deserve scholarship money" essay format. Instead, I was just suppose to creatively answer 4 different questions that were given. Oh and also attend an accredited college or university in the 2007-2008 school year. Since I'm deciding between Cal State LA or Cal State San Marcos, then I definitely apply to this scholarship. The scholarship is called the OP LOFTBED scholarship and is found at their OPLOFTBED WEBSITE. Anyway, here were the questions, and my hopefully creatively thought-out answers:

1) If you could trade places with someone for 24 hours, who would it be and why? (Answer must be between 80 and 120 words.)I would trade places with the infamous, Miss Britney Spears! She has lived through it all, from big to small. By the 25th hour, I would have experienced a life unlike many others. I grew up as a Mouseketeer, performed with the ever-so-popular boy band named NSync, won a Grammy, have married twice with one annulment and a divorce along the way, and have 2 beautiful baby boys within a two year increment. In addition to my success, I would gain weight and lose it, party with Paris Hilton, and above all, have the money to build my own bed from OP Loftbed. Oh, and an OP Loftbed for each of my baby boys! (They 'Drive me Crazy').

2) What is the greatest "life lesson" that you have learned so far in your life? (Answer must be between 80 and 120 words.)"ALWAYS WEAR CLEAN UNDERWEAR." I remember when I was 15 years old and went to the beach with a few of my friends. My father taught me the "change under the towel trick" whenever I needed to change from my underwear into shorts. Apparently I didn't change my underwear that day and we all know how messy that could look like. As I was performing my father's little secret, the wind picked up speed and my towel flew away. I literally ran to catch my underwear, naked, until it hit the girl I had a crush on. She picked it up, saw my mess, and shared it with her friends. Since then, I'll always remember to wear clean underwear.

3) What is the coolest thing you have ever found? (Answer must be 120 words or less.)
oploftbed.com (this answer was based on how I follow directions) In the DIRECTIONS portion, they told me to answer question 3 just by typing nothing else other than "oploftbed.com"

4) What book, written in the last 200 years, has had the biggest impact on your life? Why do you feel others should read it too? (Answer must be between 80 and 120 words.) "Green Eggs and Ham" By Dr. Seuss. It's a bright and colorful children's book, literally, about a weird looking guy named Sam who is trying to convince his friend (who for some reason has no name) to try green eggs and ham. I remember reading the book as a kid, curious as to why the eggs were green in the first place. In the end, the unknown friend finally gave in and accepted Sam's offer, having whole world party like it's 1999! After writing this, I realized how much this book impacted my life, especially on new experiences. No matter how ugly a situation or food entry appears to be, you will never know unless you try.

Anyhow, I hope I get the $500 scholarship. I'm suppose to find out no later than mid August. Till then, lets just hope and pray.

28 May 2007

Memorial Day.

Even thought I'm half asleep, I had this tendency to blog about my day.

First off, I have that one Hannah Montana song in my head. "You've got the Best of Both Worlds..." Maybe its because Jaybe's watching Hannah Montana on the Disney Channel right now.

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Well my Memorial Day has been really eventful. The first half of the day was spent at my Grandmas house. There was a lot of food from BBQ, steak, korean Bbq, hamburgers, hot dogs, rice! hahah Lastnight, me and Jaybe even made some bread pudding and macarroni salad. It was really fulfilling. Omg and seriously! I just realized I need to really get a new digital camara! My blog has become so boring ever since we broke our cam. It has no recent pictures! But back to our Memorial Day, the Deuce, Jaybe, and I even headed out to play tennis for a couple hours. I even did the whole thing with playing shirtless at the park! lolz what a sexual experience! jk.

The second half of the day was spent at Shellister's house. She made us hamburgers, steak and maccarroni salad as well. Afterwards, we headed upstairs to her room and watched like hella old skewl videos when we were in high school. We watched our competition show from when we were in showchoir, and Jaybe got to see the old me. Yuck! I was like seriously dark and eww. But it was fun because it was a chance to look back.

So I got back home, and I was going through my regular routine online: check the blog, check my email, then check up on Britney on BREATHEHEAVY. So it turns out that the author of BREATHEHEAVY has made a myspace. He is actually one of the cutest white boys I've ever seen. He totally reminds me of Aaron Carter. These are the two of him shirtless. AHH!!

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But then again, it makes me wonder how a guy so young like that gets all the new and scandalous info on Britney. Hmm..


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Me and Jaybe playing with colors. <3

27 May 2007

Orlando Bloom at His Best!

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So after watching Pirates of the Caribbean: At World's End, I have come to a thoughtful conclusion. I realized how masculine Orland Bloom can really be, yet isn't portrayed that way in his work. I remember when I first watched Troy, also starring Brad Pitt, Orlando was portrayed as a pretty boy, who was a "Lover and not a Fighter."

To me he's actually quite an item! He has the great looks, a hot body, and I'm sure his personality can even be a teaser. I remember reading the May 07 issue of GQ (or was it Details) Magazine. Included was a personal interview with Orlando. The writer used descriptive words when he was trying to describe the setting of the interview. Taking place on a rooftop building in West Hollywood and overlooking the city of Los Angeles, he mentioned how good it was to finally "sit down and enjoy not worrying about what's going to happen tomorrow."

That must have been a really good feeling. I mean he has been continuously working since the first Lord of the Rings has come out, and that was more than 4 years ago. I respect him not only as a celebrity, but as a person. His life resume continues to grow, just as his personal life is remaining consistent and out of the crazy tabloids. If I had the choice to become any Hollywood celebrity (besides Britney Spears), I would love to be Orlando Bloom.

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On top of that, the third installment of Pirates of the Caribbeans was actually a great movie. Considering that I watched the 11:45pm showing on its second night, I was excited for the plot. It kept me alive and wondering "What is going to happen next?" The movie focused less on Johnny Depp and his role as the Almighty Captain Jack Sparrow, and pointed its gear more on Orlando Bloom's Will Turner and his "not-so-great relationship with Keira Knightly or his father. The effects were amazing, somewhat believable, and the locations of where they filmed it must have been an adventure. I remember watching the second Pirates on the Disney Cruise Line last year and how effective the ship and it's rocking movement added to the movie. On the other hand, watching it on land made it seem like watching any other movie.


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25 May 2007

Pinoy Gay Blogs

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I was going through some of my community pages on MyBlogLog and I fell into this guy's page. He was a member of the Pinoy Gay Blogs. So I decided to check it out and see what that was about.

Anyway. It has the same concept as any other blog community except its made for the PINOY people and the GAY/BISEXUAL community. So yeah I decided to be apart of it.

If you haven't already, check it out @ http://www.pinoygayblogs.com


Sweat. Moist. Heat.

The three words that describe my body right now. I just finished running outside with my bro. It was worth it! We normally run around 5 or 6 in the evening, but today we started running around 4. It was more hot outside, meaning more sweat, meaning more calories are burned! Anyway, I had this urge to take off my shirt while running, but then I still felt self conscious of a little flab that some bystanders/drivers would see. Eh, maybe next time. Ahh, I'm still sweating, I could feel the drips going down my chest and my face. And this is going to be a continued excercise for the desired figure I was hoping on acheiving before I head out to the Philippines. Oh, and thank goodness we bought more water today. These Aquafina stuff totally cools me down.

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Plans for the evening would be to watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN: AT WORLD'S END with Shellister and Minji. We were hoping on heading to Downtown Disney to watch it to, ya know, get the whole Walt Disney experience. But we'll see how it goes.

Oh yeah..

I got my pictures in my email this morning from the professional photographers at the graduation ceremony from Wednesday evening. Out of all, this was the best:

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I'm planning on buying one of those frames where it has the tassel all hanging on the side. Blah!


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Me and Cherylster at Rage in West Hollywood, CA. circa 2005


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Britney did it again! No matter how much I love my BRIT, I just can't seem to ignore even the worst news about her. So this one was published a couple days ago by EGOTASTIC and I barely read this piece of info today. I even watched the video and its funny how you see Britney turning around at the time of the skipping to avoid exposure and even doing the step and clap move. They say its a !class act, but I call it pure entertainment. No matter what happens to her, she still empowers my world! Go Britney!

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I was browsing more blogs earlier today and I fell into this dude's music blog. I never even knew there was such things as a music. Actually I think it's a website where you can listen to music, watch videos, and blog about pretty much anything you want. Check it out at Chubibo. Yeah this guy had some pretty good songs that I never heard of. Yet, at the same time he had songs that I haven't heard since junior hign and listening to them totally brought me back there. But I also put use to his list by jotting down songs that would complement Jaybe's sister's Debut that shes having this August.

In speaking of her Debut, if any of you know ANY songs that are DEBUT-related, or even having a girl to womanhood type of a theme, that would be great! Let me know! I totally would love that as a feedback.


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22 May 2007


As much as I've been holding back from blogging about anything, I can't resist knowing the fact that my ratings are dropping. It's not important that it gets high, but it's just important how un-informed the world is of my life. I feel like I'm giving the impression that I'm a very boring person, when in reality, I'm simply not. I'll try to take the time to recap my actions, jot down my thoughts, relive my dreams, and above all, reach for the stars!

So that was my thought 2 minutes ago. Here are my thoughts right now.

Ahhhh! One more day until my graduation ceremony!! Excited are we? Sure. So today was the beginning, yet the end of something new. Make sense? Well, I got the chance to actually get in the "running" mood. I ran 7 laps at the school's track and boy, did that feel good. I picked up my graduation robes too. I expected them to be black like any other colleges, but these robes are actually the same as my high school alma mater's, a dark navy blue. Tooshay!

I also got my haircut. Turns out, my original hair stylist of 2 years was fired for lack of attendance and no shows. So this was the first time in the 2 years where I had to try someone new to do my hair. I expected it to be chaotic, but it was actually pretty good. Her name is Susan (in case I forget in the near future) and she was also just as cute! Before I got there, I pictured Susan to be a fat latina women. I don't know why. Probably because every single Susan I've met in my 22 years of existence were always on the heavy side. But yeah, she did't straighten my hair as Jorge, my original hairstylist, would. Shabby but just as nice!

Like any other event, there would be pictures included in the post but I still didnt manage to fix the camara or purchase a new one. I am so in lack of funds right now. Yikes!

Oh My God! So yesterday was a really big day for me and Jaybe! We headed down to San Diego to go apartment hunting in the areas between our schools for next fall. Let me tell you, the customer service between each landlord should seriously get more work! There were a couple of times where we had to wait like no other, with me making random thoughts that this is discrimination! But that was just a random thought. No seriuosly, it wasn't until after we left where the filipino lady followed us to our car asking for any assistance. She was even willing to give us a tour. But I already started the car and I'm sure I did not want to come out again. So she left her business card and Wa La!

But bottom line is that we found a perfect place. It wasn't in our itinerary but it caught our attention just as we were going to head back home. The place is on a hill and overlooks a large part of this San Diego city and is surrounding by retail, restaurants, entertainment, and other small businesses. The apartment representive was extremely nice. She gave us the tour and even ASKED the people after us to wait while she gave that tour. (The other representitives in the other apartments didn't give us that treatment). But anyway, we saw the midsize one bedroom apartment and it was beautiful. Although it was furnished and completely modeled, we knew that we could rock a better interior design! It was spacious and the rent price wasn't that bad. Since it was too early in the season to determine an availability for August, we just added ourselves to the waiting list, at no charge! Oh yeah, ammenities include a large pool, a big gym and workout room, a private theater, an internet cafe, and a cabana room where we can throw private parties! To add to it, when we were signing our application, we saw two young boys working out in the weight room shirtless and sweating! They were like two little twinks you'd love to see online. What a tease! But yeah, we're going to wait on that one and hopefully that will be the place where Jaybe and I will settle. LOVE IT!

We even got to look at our schools where we'll be attending in the Fall. Jaybe was a little overwhelmed by the process of admission at his school, but we were supportive. He even had to take the entrance exam and him being so smart, did so well! He only had 13 minutes to answer a 50 question math and english test. Out of 25 he answered, 23 were right! And he had to get 18 correct. Once again, he made me proud! So hopefully that works out for him.

It seems really quiet and cold outside. San Diego weather was just as depressing yesterday. It didn't really help with the excitment because the whole day was gloomy. I'm typing shirtless wearing nothing but my plaid boxers. The window is open and the room is cold. It feels good with the breeze running agains every hidden part of the body. Ya'lls should try that sometime. What to do now? I'll see ya in a few.


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Me, Arnel, Kyle, and Johnster with an unlikely photograph somewhere in 2005.


19 May 2007


Whoa! 5 Days and no blogging? Now thats a hardship!

The past few days were actually quite eventful. Lets see, I've had a straight week of tech rehearsal for our dance performance, my cuzin graduated yesterday and we celebrated, lastnight was our opening night, and today is our closing night for our faculty dance production!

I have so much to talk about, I just dont know where to start. But bottom line: I made new friends in my dance class who are all pretty cool in some nature. As I mentioned a few posts ago, I will be celebrating my gradutuation next week. My cuzin Dean graduated yesterday from California State University, Dominguez Hills with a major in Communications and a minor in Advertising. Totally Proud of that guy! It was good to see a lot of our relatives coming out to the ceremony to see him walk. Loved it! We had a lunch reception at a nice Hawaiian Infusion themed restaurant in downtown LA. It was called ROYS and it was awesome! I'm definately going back there.

Ahh my laptop battery is dying and I'm too lazy to go to my room to get my charger. I'll repost more later. Till then, ta ta!


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Me somewhere introducing the Wynn Hotel somewhere in 2005.

14 May 2007


I was going through my old CELEBS archive and found this.

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These were my favorite celebs at the time, and typically the celebs that I tend to update myself with, mostly regarding the gossips and all. I'm thinking of adding a CELEBRITY of the Day blog and label everytime I post. So come back to see some rare pictures of those who we love to be, or hate to avoid. Love it!


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So yesterday was the DAY OF THE MOMMIES! For me, it started as a morning workout. Me, the Deuce, and my sis headed to the park to play some tennis. Since I haven't played tennis for the previous two days, it was a great workout for me. After about 2 hours, yeah we wook up at 6 that morning, we headed to the flower shop to by our mom some flowers. We ended up getting her this nice arrangement of red roses that were exclusively accented with glitter. They were all gathered in a modern rectangular vase, but of course, had all the Mother's Day decor. We headed back home and surprised her with that along with those huge greeting cards. She loved it, and we loved watching her read all the individuals each one of us throughfully wrote.

The who day basically involved family. First, we headed to my aunt's house where we had a small shindig. The food was different. They made mexican dishes such as tacos, carnitas and chicken, chips and salsa, taguitos, and so on. But they there was also arroz caldo which was so good, better than the ones you buy at the filipino restaurants here. yum!

After lunch, my lil rebel cuz, bernie premeiered her new grand piano that my aunt and uncle bought for her. This girl is like 13 and she is a pro with the piano. I'm glad she carried on the talent of music. Anyway, I asked if she knew how to play Rent's "Season of Love" and she did. So there I was singing, not the greatest, but hey it was still good! That song led to more songs from Coldplay to Keane. I think she's a pretty fun girl with some type of a hidden dark side but I love it. Reminds me a me..sorta.

After hanging out a bit in the house, it was finally time to head over to Glendale where we were going to celebrate with Jaybe's fam bam. My mom ironically had work that night as well as having to work overtime. Anyhoo, as I was driving there, the sun reflecting towards my eyes made me so drowsy. I was seriously at that point where I needed to close my eyes and lie down. But with Jaybe being silly and singing to all the iPod tunes, we played it safe.

We ended up cooking dinner for Jaybe's family. We made fried chicken, filipino spaghetti, and vanilla and chocolate brownies. It was a really good dinner actually. I got to bond more with Jaybe's younger cousins as well as her sister, who was going through some hard times with her boyfriend. It was a full day filled with lots of emotions, but being there as a friend and guest hopefully set everything at a good mood. We even got to play Bonkers with Jaybes cousins and mom. Good way to spend Mother's Day with them.

I was planning on going to San Marcos today with my mom to show her around the area. I'm supposedly planning on attending Cal State University, San Marcos whether or not I get admitted into thier nursing program. But yeah, my older bro took the 4 runner to work, and that was the car we were relying on using. So now were here bored as a mofo!

Oh yeah! Jaybe talked to his mom yesterday about life and his plans with school. Since I'm planning on moving to San Diego, Jaybe was planning on attending an LVN Nursing program there as well. He was just unsure if his mom would accept that. So yesterday he had the chance to talk about that with her, and she said he could move in with me. Since we already live together, I'm the arrangement wasn't going to be a problem. It's all in the matter of rent money, pocket money, and just having money where we fall out. But we always find our way out of everything. So its official, me and Jaybe will be moving to San Diego! Were already in the midst of finding a nice apartments. We already found some good ones online, but were still planning on heading down there to observe evertyhing! Whoa! looks like there's going to be changes in the next couple of months. Love it!

Now regarding pictures. Our digital camara broke last week. This only means that there probably wont be any recent pictures up until we fix the cam or buy a new one. Any new camaras we should know about and invest in? We had a sony, and I'm still leaning on keeping it that way, but were open to all suggestions.

I guess thats all for now. I hope everyone had an excting Mother's Day as much as we had! I Love my MOM!

10 May 2007


Whoop Dee Doo. So its official! I AM GRADUATING! Since my CPR class ended early today, I had extra time to go verify my graduation status. I already received most of the graduation ceremony information, but I just wanted to make sure that I am getting a diploma. So yes, on May 23rd of this May, I will be receiving my Associate of Arts Degree in Pre-Nursing. Hey, it’s better than nothing. And don’t worry; I’m still going to reach for my Bachelor of Science, Nursing degree one day.

On top of the whole graduating thing, I also ended up buying a Fullerton College sweater. Since I’ve been attending FJC for 2 years, I decided that I wanted to buy a Fullerton sweater. So, from the options that they had at the bookstore, I had to choose between three different colors; black, red, and blue. Now the black had to be eliminated only because they didn’t have a small. So now it was narrowed down to red or blue? I knew that the blue was a typical color for any college sweater, and since I had this vision or should I say, feeling of wanting a red hooded sweater, I ended up choosing the red. It was ironic, because I wasn’t able to find the red sweater until Jaybe found it in the back of all the other reds. We thought that someone was trying to hide that small from me! But woo hoo!

On top of that, I also bought my graduation announcements. I’m so lame. I know that getting an Associate’s Degree isn’t really a big thing, especially from where I come from. But hey, we all live once and not a lot of people can say that they have an Associate, right? Like I asked my friend Lerissa and Kat what they thought and they weren’t too fond with the whole “walking for an Associate.” But on the other hand, there’s this girl in my yoga class who said that she’s planning on traveling to Europe once she gets her AA. It’s like, getting her AA was her lifelong goal! I don’t know. That’s why I’m considering getting this degree as a stepping stone, and hopefully one day get that BS! Yea baby Yea!

So just for fun and to you dirty readers out there. I was in the midst of writing the second paragraph of this post, until I was interrupted for playing a few games of tennis with my bro and Jaybe. I ended up leaving the laptop on. When we came back, Jaybe headed straight for the laptop and ended up finishing my paragraph. Its a little too graphic for our nature and if your under 18, I’d cover your eyes. Here it goes…

On top of the whole graduating thing, I also ended up buying a Fullerton College sweater. I walked into the room and I saw Jaybe with this other guy. At first I was shocked but then I noticed that the guy under my boyfriend was none other than Sam Milby. So instead of getting mad, I joined in. To my surprise, they told me to wait my turn so I just sat at the foot of the bed watching my boyfriend fuck Sam Milby. When they finally finished, they told me to to take off all my clothes and lay down with my ass on the air. Sam Milby forced his dick inside my tight hole while my boyfriend shoved his big dick in my mouth.

He’s horny and silly like that.

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Whoop Dee Do.

love - jb

09 May 2007


January 20 - February 17
You are in a terrific position right now to make a significant move in your life, dear Aquarius. With a great deal of physical energy coupled with incredibly high self-esteem, you have what it takes to make a major push toward the larger goals you are striving for. There is opportunity coming at you from all angles, and the energy at hand is fast and furious. Your strong, courageous nature is ripe for hopping aboard the open boxcar when the train comes zooming by.

Reading this sort of gave me a positive sense as to what my future has in store for me. All that positive energy and higher self-esteem are two big things that I really need to hold on, especially if I want to go where I am destined to be. Even though my feelings right now aren't at its greatest, I know that everything will still pull through.

God, I have a lot to do today. Most importantly, I reallny need to start my personal statement essay for Cal State San Bernardino's Nursing Program. I've been cutting it off lately, but I think today would be the perfect day to do that.

Oh and me and Jaybe are planning on washing our dogs today, ChIP and ABER! Its been a while since they had thier last wash! Too long actually!

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This is CHIP when we first saw him at the shelter. Its his darn eyes we fell in love with!

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And this is ABERCROMBIE, (ABER for short). Yeah he may look like a girl, but he is owned by two gay boys!

08 May 2007

NO GAS ON MAY 15th 2007

Don't pump gas on MAY 15th

In April 1997, there was a "gas out" conducted nationwide in protest of gas prices. Gasoline prices dropped 30 cents a gallon overnight.

On May 15th 2007, all internet users are to not go to a gas station
in protest of high gas prices. Gas is now over $3.00 a gallon in most

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There are 73,000,000+ American members currently on the internet network, and the average car takes about 30 to 50 dollars to fill up. If all users did not go to the pump on the 15th, it would take $2,292,000,000.00 (that's a almost 3 BILLION ) out of
the oil companies pockets for just one day, so please do not go to the gas station on May 15th and lets try to put a dent in the Middle Eastern oil industry for at least one day.

If you agree (which I cant see why you wouldn't resend this to all your contact list. With it saying, ''Don't pump gas on May 15th"


I was viewing my BLOG LINKAGE and I came across a photo slide show from FILIPINO HUNKS. We need more guys to look like Sam, including myself! I mean, he's a very handsome guy, and from the fact that he's an All American, it shows that its possible for some of us to be filipino stars. Oh well, that would be a great thing.

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07 May 2007


I’ve been thinking. What is destiny? Is destiny something that you want? Is it something that you need? Is it a future or even a place? Is it the state of realizing that wherever you start today, manifests into where you’ll be tomorrow? What is it? I’ve been thinking about my destiny. I’ve been thinking about where I’ll be, let alone, who I’ll be.

I know one thing for sure. I know that I want to be successful. I want to finish and graduate from college and at the same time, experience my remainder days in college. I want to have a stable and well-paying career, and at the same time, happiness. As of right now, I’m heading towards becoming a registered nurse. That’s my primary goal. In a matter of 4 years, I’ve attended two different colleges and switched between two different majors. I live off the edge. I’ve been successful consecutively since my days as a child. But that was then, and this is now.

As I’ve mentioned earlier, I will one day become a nurse. I’ve been committed to reach this goal, since I’ve realized what I do today, extremely matters into whom I am and what I’ll be. In this case I continue, to search for my destiny. I already found a part of life, I believe is an important ingredient to the purpose of life, Love. I’ve been committed with Jaybe for a little over two years, and within these past few years of knowing him, I’ve learned so much about how love works, and how to relate it with life. He’s been completely supportive with everything I believe and everything I’ve represented. He has watched me grow from being so dependent upon others, only to help me rely more on myself. I know that destiny has brought him to me as much as it has brought me to him. Love is something we’ve created and experienced and we both know that everyday should be celebrated with eachother’s love.

Another part that makes me question destiny is happiness. Will someone’s destiny always bring him or her happiness? What if someone was destined to fail? What if they were destined to commit a terrible crime and live off life in between the cracks and crevices of the earth? I want to have a happy and satisfying destiny. I don’t want to survive life without the thrill of waking up in the morning knowing what I’ll be doing or who I’ll be waking up next to. I know that the presence of family makes one’s life work. Although relationship tend to fade or scratch, I hope that my relationship with my family remains in true connection. That would be happiness. Distance can grow, but attachment can remain. Ever since I was a kid, I carried a strong attachment with my family. This is part of the reason why I’ve become so dependent with others, I guess. Either way, it’s a mold on how I became who I am today.

That felt good. It felt good thinking about life and where I want my destiny to be. Even though I still wont know where I’ll be in the next few years, decades, or lifetime, I hope I remain being myself. Jaybe always reminds me how important I am to him and that alone makes me feel special for being myself. Wow. Thinking about that made me think of an equation. Life + Love = Destiny. Hmm. I guess that is true in this context. You cant live life without love. And If you take away love from your destiny, life will left alone. It all makes sense in the end.

06 May 2007


So I officialy have a problem typing blogs on this laptop. It seems that everytime I start a new blog, I tend to accidently highlight the whole entry on the little fingerpad, and OOPS delete everthing! This is my second attempt.

Okay, so I was talking about my Thursday night. It all started out when I got a missed call from Kristin. A couple minutes passed and then Minji called. Turns out we were going to hang out! Excited! Now what to do? We made plans to meet up at BANANA BAY in Rowland Heights, CA. And afterwards, after months of waiting, watch the premier of SPIDERMAN 3!!

So we met up at banana bay. Shellister was there first since she went straight from work. Me and Jaybe got there next, then Kristin and finally Minji. We even had to order for Minji, only because we were all hungry, and knowing how busy that place gets, we knew it was the best thing.

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I ordered beef pad see ew, which was totally out of the ordinary for me since I tend to order more than just one entry. Jaybe ordered the fried pork chop with rice and a thai iced tea. Oh and I got my fav drink, pineapple juice. Yum! We all shared fried wonton and fried calamari as our appetizers. I regret not taking pixes of our food, but we go to that restaurant a lot, so that’s no biggy. It was a really good dinner because we all got to catch up with everybody’s lives!

After dinner, we were all suppose to go to the theaters and watch Spiderman 3 but….

Kristin and Michaele refused! Ahh. Nope that was just dramatic. They basically had to wake up early tomorrow, and knowing that the movie was more than 2 hours, it was totally understandable. So instead, since Minji already bought the tickets for us, we just went back there and switch those tickets for a Friday night show. It was going to be fine.

While we were there, we saw the movie trailor for THE SIMPSONS MOVIE. And since it was one of the most creative trailors that we’ve ever seen, why not take a picture with it?

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After we got our new movie stubs, we still realized how young the night was. Me, Minji, and Jaybe ended up craving some boba, so we went to TEN REN’S in Rowland Heights and decided to dine in there. Since the environment there is very trendy and youthful, might as well make it fun for us too.

Since Minji is korean and cool like that, she for some odd reason, had a UNO cards and a deck of playing cards in her purse. IT WAS GAME NIGHT! Lolz

I ordered an Amazon Teaser, which is a blend of boba and some other exotic fruits. Jaybe ordered a regular black iced tea, and Minji ordered the hot black tea. For the heck of it, we also ordered some sweet toast, just to get the game started!

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First we played UNO using Minji’s Care Bear cards. Since its been a while since either of us played uno, we had to look at the directions and re-read everything. But when the game started we all got so into it.

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After a few games, we picked up the playing cards. These cards were a little unique only because their STARBUCKS game cards (note to the readers: Minji has been a Starbucks employee since we were in high school together almost 4 years ago. ) and those cards were I think 3 years old? Good timing to use them huh?

So we ended up playing Pusoy Dos aka. Big 2. For some odd reason, I kept winning at 2nd place. Minjia and Jaybe kept switching for 1st and 3rd and vice versa. It was funny because I kept teasing to them that I average at a 2nd place level, but they teased me that I was 3rd place because I never get 1st. Boo to them! Haha

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Our old friend, Lisa, came by to say hi. It was really good seeing her although it was so random. I remember I had a crush on her in elementary school. Ahh, those little innocent days. But yeah back to the game! Lolz

Our waiter was pretty cute, so in the end we asked him to take our picture and this was what it looked like.

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On the way to the door, I also got to see Clara, which was another friend I knew back in high school. I was actually in the same grade as her older sister, but Clara is too cute to not to be considered.!

We basically called it a night after that. Since Jaybe had a Disney orientation the next morning, we had to fill the car up with gas. I was a little low on the money, so I asked my mom for her card and she gave me a 20. Still good still good.